In the Pink. Again.
February 24, 2006
So I called my mom last night, mostly to bore someone besides Jason with a very long diatribe about work, about daycare, about staying home, about money, about spending the majority of my precious moments with Noah getting crapped on, and about whatever else was bugging me out yesterday.
I took a breath after 20 minutes or so, and finally got around to asking how she was doing.
I figured we'd talk some more about Amber, our sweet old dog, who was put to sleep last week after a long battle with Everything, and I didn't tell you guys about that because I'm just too damn sad to talk about it.
She was a good dog, and I never got to say goodbye, unless you count last Christmas when I really, really hope I remembered to pet her.
Goodbye, Old Paint.
But we didn't talk about Amber last night, at least not right away.
They found a lump. Another goddamn lump. In her other breast. Her only breast.
We're starting all over again. And I have no words.
I do, however, have an appropriate onesie (which you can find here). And a bunch of Very Good Links You Should Click On, Preferably With Your Credit Card Handy.
Noah likes the boobs! You give money now!
Don't make me break out the baby toes, people.
praying. praying for Nanalah. hang in.
I'm so sorry. You guys truly deserve a break already. Your whole famalah will be in my prayers.
poor nanalah... i'm so sorry you have to go throught it again.
Oh Amy, I am so sorry.
I am thinking extra-special good thoughts for your mom.
Big prayers and good thought to you.
So very sorry, I will keep you, Nanalah, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
PS - love the toes!
so, so sorry. thoughts & prayers with you & your family.
and I'll have to break out the card to get my son a matching onesie. he's a big supporter of the boobies.
Oh Amy....I am so terribly sorry. Lots of prayers being sent.
I love Noah's onsie!
my lord, amy. SO sorry to hear that. :( but although it is a very sad thing, your mom CAN beat this! don't forget that, and don't let HER forget it, either. it's just another stumble in the road, but it's NOT the end of the path.
lots of prayers huggable thoughts.
Seriously, we need to put karma in its place... some SERIOUSLY AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL shit needs to start happening to the Amalah family like pronto!
That is the most heartwrenchingly adorable onesie I've ever seen in my entire life.
So sorry to hear this. Will say a prayer for your mama.
Thinking of you guys. Will definitley say a prayer for your Nanalah.
Nanalah is in my thoughts, Amy.
I'm so very sorry, Amy! My thoughts will be with you and your mom!
Oh Amalah, I am sorry.
I work at Johns Hopkins- if you wish to post it, this is a link where people can donate to cancer research online- and can specify breast cancer research.
http://www.hopkinskimmelcancercenter.org/contributions/
I know I can only give a little, but I have seen for myself how every bit helps and would encourage others to give at least a little.
Your Momalah and your family are in my prayers. I hope you all get a break.
Prayers here in Tennessee Amy...many of them
I'm so sorry about your mom. I'll be thinking of all of you.
WHOOPS!- when I said give a little- I mean to any of the cancer sites.
I'm not trying to have any personal gain- I don't work in fundraising.
Sorry if anyone misunderstood.
Sending lote of prayers and good thoughts your way Amy. I'm so so sorry to hear about this but your mamalah is so very lucky to have someone like you who can keep her positive and also get a whole caboodle of internet friends thinking about her. Sending you hugs too!
i'm so sorry. will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.
I'm so sorry to hear that. Coleen's got my donation.
Be strong.
Hey {{hugs}} I am so very sorry to hear about your mom. Please let her know that someone (me) over in PA is totally supporting women with breast cancer. In Oct, I raised $1000 for the American Cancer Society for breast cancer (Pamper for a Cure) and in April I am doing "Shop for a Cure." With the admission fee going again to the ACS for breast and ovarian cancer. My husband's aunt has breast cancer and also just had a breast removed. :( So please send my love to your mom. She'll be in my prayers.
I am so sorry to hear the news. Your whole family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Amy--
My Mom is currently undergoing chemo for colon cancer, so I can relate to what you must be going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom and Dad and the rest of your family. Fingers (and toes) crossed that everything turns out okay.
And my condolences to you and your family. Losing a pet is so hard (we've lost two kitties in the past three years). My doggies are 15 and 12 now, so I really just try not to think about it. They're my kids, and I can't imagine life without them.
So sorry to hear that. Your mom and the rest of your family will definitely be in my prayers. I really hope that she does even better at kicking its butt this time.
Gah, I am so damn sorry. Cancer is the suckiest sucky thing on the planet. My mom went through all that crap last year and my father is dying of it now (okay, he's not dying of breast cancer, but still.) Such a huge suckfest.
You're in my thoughts and prayers.
We will kill the cancer damn it, we will!
Aw, damn. DAMN. Even the powerful juju of the "SUCK IT" mantra cannot counter the shitstorm that the universe is currently directing your way, girl. Good vibes from Alabama. Uh, slightly to the north of the ones that are being vibed at you by zoot.
Oh Amy, I'm so sorry. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Amy... I don't have the right words. I've heard them all and there's really nothing that can be said to make this okay.
We've been going through this with my mom who couldn't even finish chemo for her breast cancer over the Christmas holidays because it made her so God awful sick.
Just know that you're in my thoughts and I hope and pray everything turns out okay.
I'm so sorry. She's kicked it once, she will kick it again. I'm so sorry you are going to have to go through this again.
Lots of love and prayers to the Nanalah
I am praying for you, your mom and your entire family.
I volunteer on the committee for the Komen Race in our town. I've never lost anyone in my immediate family to breast cancer, and I've never had it (most of the other committee members fall into one of those two categories), but too damned many of my friends and aunts have suffered because of the bitch.
Am on my way to order that onesie for Alex.
Hang tough. Have some alcohol. Know we are all thinking of you and sending positive vibes your mom's way.
Prayers for your Mom and you. Just so everyone knows - there are 3 links above for 3 different people! I am happy to give for Mamalah.
Oh, Amy, I'm so sorry. How stressful for you and your mother. And I'm sorry about Amber too - what a beautiful doggy she was (and not blonde! my daughter, Amber, is convinced that every other Amber out there is a bubble-headed blonde! hahah Not that all blondes are bubble-headed and why am I babbling on when YOU are blonde and this is your very own blog I am insulting you on but you are OBVIOUSLY not bubble-headed and your name isn't Amber though when I named my kid Amber my mother SWORE she would only refer to her as Amy because she hated Amber and oh my god somebody stick a bagel in my mouth, no, that wouldn't work, duct tape on my fingers???)
Anyway, I'm so sorry. Wishing and hoping for the best for your mother and yes, the cure, worthy cause, wonderful way to divert your starbucks money....
so sorry. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Here is another link my Mom and I particiapte in every year (she had breast cancer in 01)
http://www.boobiethon.com/
I'm so sorry to hear about Mom. Cancer sucks the big one. My dad's doing the chemo thing now too. It sucks. Did I mention that cancer sucks? It does. Many prayers coming your way...
Amy, I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. Best wishes for a quick and complete recovery.
Shit. That sucks. I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry - about your Mom and dog. That is so fucking unfair.
Amalah, I'm so sorry! I will keep y'all in my thoughts and prayers.
Baby drooly kisses and hair-tugging hugs from my babester to you and your momster.
My mom had bc in 2004, dad has lung and liver cancer now. It does suck in a big big way.
My thoughts and prayers are for you and Nanalah. We have had our own experience with this devastating disease in the last couple of years. My family participated in our Weekend to End Breast Cancer last year and are gearing up for the weekend again this year - with you and your family in our hearts.
AWESOME shirt! I'm so sorry Amy! I'm right there with you though. They found cancer in my Grandma's boob 50 years ago, so..off with it. 25 years later, cancer in the other boob...off with it. 25 years later (now) the fucking SCAR from off-ing one of the boobs, has been attacked by the cancer. For real, it's like enough already! How much can these women take? She's already had surgery to remove the cancer from the scar tissue but it didn't work so now she has to explore her options of treatment. Your mom will without a doubt be in my thoughts and my prayers!
Amalah- we need a link for at least a charity that you got the onesie from. All of my friends want it. Thanks!
I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. She will be in my thoughts. *hugs*
So sorry Amy. Stuff happening to moms stinks. Hugs to you and to her. And I love that onesie! I just wish he didn't have to wear it. :(
I'm so sorry, Amy. I'm thinking of you and your family.
Sending healthy hugs and prayers from Upstate New York. I am so sorry, Amy.
The onesie is great; I just ordered three for friends expecting babies.
God bless you all.
Just delurking to say how sorry I am to hear your news.
I will be praying for your Mum's recovery.
Amy,
Thoughts and prayers for a successful and speedy recovery are with your mom and your family.
If she can, have you mom go to Memorial Sloan Kettering in New York or at least check out their website at: http://www.mskcc.org/mskcc/html/44.cfm
They saved my husband's life; he had surgery for colo-rectal cancer there last fall. Their motto is: "The best cancer care. Anywhere."
He's got one more chemo session to go.
Condolences for your dog. I've got a cat with kidney failure. The husband thinks he and the cat feel about the same right now.
So sorry. Thinking of you.
Hoping Nanalah beats this again. Fortunately, she has a great family to support her and a sweet little grandson to bring smiles to her face.
I typically donate to Susan Komen so I'll be more than happy to help out those women you linked to.
Best wishes. Stay strong, all of you.
Thanks y'all. Sorry I forgot to mention that the onesie was a gift from Minarae, who also does all sorts of amazing breast cancer fundraising and will be walking again later this year. I think it was from her own CafePress store, but I will ask her for more info.
Oh, Amy. There will be walkers at the Chicago Avon Walk for Breast Cancer with Nanalah written on their shirts, I'm sure of it.
Thinking of you, and wishing you all the very best in this difficult time. It sounds like a grocery store card, but it's true.
I am so sorry, Amy. Thinking of your mom and sending good thoughts.
I'm thinking about you...not that you have any idea who I am, but I bet there are a whole lot more of us out here in lurkdom who feel the same...
I'm so sorry. We're all thinking of you and your mom and wishing you the best. (Is there anything to say in these situations that doesn't sound lame and trite?) But it's sincere, as wiser posters than me have pointed out. Take care of yourself.
So sorry to hear about your mom and the dog. My mother is a 2-time breast cancer survivor so I can definitely relate to what you are going through right now. You all are definitely in my thoughts and prayers.
Now, I must go find that onesie for my son and nephew. It is absolutely adorable!
Any chance it's benign? I'm sending good vibes to you and your mom today.
We found out Wednesday my aunt has breast cancer. She's having surgery next week. Just confirms my motto - cancer sucks! I am the team captain for my work's Relay for Life team, but somehow it never seems like enough, since it is just such an awful disease. Hugs to Nanalah, and the whole Amalah family.
I didn't know your bad day could get worse, but it did. :( I'm so so so sorry... *hugs* I will be sending you good vibes and prayers and whatever else I can muster.
So sorry, Amy. I'm wishing you and your family well...
GAH GAH GAH SO SO SO SO UNFAIR!!!
I'm sorry, Amy. Your mom will kick cancer's ass again, but it still SUCKS.
(P.S. I am also selling walk-related t-shirts in my CafePress store, if folks want to support that way... all proceeds to the Boston 3-Day. http://www.cafepress.com/woulda)
Hugs to the Amalah clan.
I'm so sorry, Amy. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Thinking of you and your momalah
I'm so sorry. My mom had to have a double mastectomy too, a few years apart. But she'll be 75, and she's alive and kicking-- though boobless :o)
My prayers will be with you, your mom, and your family while you're going through this again. I'm so sorry there has to be an again.
Wow. I'm really sorry.
My God the feet on that child!
Oh, Amy, so sorry. About Amber, about Nanalah, about all of it.
Lots of thinking about you will be going on over here.
Oh Amy...I so know where you're coming from. I lost my mom (53) last month to lung cancer (she never even smoked), three weeks after I put my cat down for intestinal cancer. And I have a baby girl just a few weeks older than Noah. Breast cancer runs like noses in my mom's family, too...but if it makes you feel any better, my great-grandma survived hers by better than 50 years. Yeah, it came back, but she was 95. I'll be saying an extra prayer every night for your Momalah. If she's anything like you, she'll kick its ass and make it wish it had never replicated. If you ever need someone to talkto, shoot me an e-mail.
Debbie and baby Persephone
Like everyone else, I'm really sorry for everything your family is facing.
Best of luck!
I'm so sorry. It must be incredibly difficult. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Amy,
Will send good healing vibes for mamalah.
I am really sorry, Amy. My mother is a breast cancer survivor and she has always said she wished she would have had them "just take both at the same time" so she wouldn't have to still always worry.
Hang in there and think only good thoughts.
Noah is a perfect poster boy for the cause. :-)
So sorry to hear this. Sending good vibes your way.
Tell your parents to behave themselves!
NO MORE CANCER!!
Thinking of you all!
Your mom is also in my thoughts, I am wishing her a quick recovery. Good luck with everything, I am saying prayers for you too.
ARGH. Thoughts of comfort and healing sent your family's way. Your son is the best spokesperson I've seen yet: what a doll!
Amy, I am so sorry. I just can't imagine how you are feeling or how your mom is feeling. I am keeping your family in my prayers. Save the boobies indeed.
I'm so sorry. Putting lots of prayers out for Nanalah.
amy. aww, hon. i'm sorry. will be sending big huge be well vibes to nanalah. and hugs to amalah too.
Oh Amy, I am so so sorry! There are no words.
When you find out how to get a onesie, I want one for my own little boy. I did the 3 day a few years ago and it was an amazing experience.
Jesus, can't your poor parents (and you) just catch a break already? I am thinking of you all.
you and yours in our thoughts and prayers.
In my prayers and my thoughts.
I would love to buy that wonderful little onsie... where can I get it?
I click daily at http://www.thebreastcancersite.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/CTDSites
Oh, Amy.... :( Everything is crossed for your mom, and the credit cards are being dusted off as we speak.
Man, what a couple of hard blows to deal with at once. Sending strength and positive thinking to you all! Fight the good fight!!
Where did you get the outfit your son is wearing?
Oh, I'm so sorry. My mom was diagnosed with uterine cancer this past summer. She's doing really well now, but... what a horrible, horrible feeling that was. Mommies just aren't supposed to get sick!
Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers.
I am so sorry, but thinking good thoughts for your mom! And when you have the info about the onesie, please post if it is not too much trouble. My mother-in-law is a survivor, and lives in Peoria where the Komen Foundation started. We do the walk there every year and this will be Jack's first year and I want to surprise her with him wearing the onesie.
Hang in there...
prayers and happy thoughts.
I'm so sorry to hear that your mom and your family have been dealt another blow by this horrible disease, it truly is TEH suck. She'll be in all our thoughts and prayers x
I'll be thinking of you and your family and praying for your Mom's quick recovery!
Sorry to hear you have recieved such terrible news. :-(
I'm here for the first time today thanks to Mir. I hope everything goes well and that your mom is better soon. And those are SOME baby toes, I must say. Irresistible.
Amy, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm sending cancer-fighting thoughts and healing vibes toward Philly.
Prayers for Nanalah.
Condolences for the gorgeous Amber.
Credit card out for the onesie.
I am so sorry. I send lots of prayers and good thoughts to your mom, and your entire family.
Amy--I'm so sorry about your mom (and your dog.)I'll be thinking of your mom and hoping for the absolute best--Noah needs Nanalah!
I'm really sorry to hear that and will be praying for her!
In addition to donating at the 3-day site, here's a link to some "Save the Boobies" merchandise. If this isn't the right site, someone please provide the correct link. I found it through a search.
http://www.cafepress.com/BoobieBrigade
I am so sorry. I will say you really know how to tug at the heart strings putting cute little Noah in that onesie and posting pictures of him. I will keep Namalah and you in my prayers.
Also, I know this should be about your mom and all, but those are the cutest damn pictures of Noah ever. He's smiling! It's like he knows he needed to smile to the peeps for Nanalah!
My prayers, thoughts, and best wishes are with all of you!
monkey toes!!! :)
I don't think there could be a better representative for the cause than Noah. Especially with those cute little toes. :P
I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.
Geez... what sucky news! I'm SO sorry. I hope and pray everything turns out for the best and that your mom has the strength to fight this again. We need our moms... especially now that WE'RE moms.
I'm also sorry about your dog. They really become family, don't they?
So sorry to hear of the new lump- prayers and dnonations are zooming through the airwaves as we speak.
Sending good thoughts to you and Nanalah. There's really nothing else I can say except that we're sending good, healthy thoughts. Hang in.
So, so sorry to hear this news but sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
I have no words. I'll pray for all of you.
oh God, Amy. I'm so sorry to hear this. My thoughts will be with you and your mom.
Your moms a strong lady, I will be praying for her and all of you.
Rough week, girl. Hang in there. I'm so sorry you're going through all this.
Prayers and good vibes coming your way. Stay strong.
(And little Noah? Could raise eleventy million dollars for the cause if the powers that be put his cute little self in that seriously cute little onesie on billboards everywhere. He is too precious!)
Hooray for 3-Day walkers!
We're going through the same thing in our house (with the cancer) and it sucks the big one. Keeping you and your mom in my thoughts.
I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for your mom.
What is WITH this week? My sister got a cancer diagnosis today, as well.
Many prayers heading your way, Amy.
My thoughts and prayers are with Nanalah. And the rest of you all, also. =)
God...one minute you have me laughing and the next, I'm crying. Good thoughts for you, Amber, Nanalah. I want that shirt!
I'm so sorry. How frightening - again. That onesie is classic - who could say no to THAT?
Amber was beautiful. My parents had to put our dog to sleep, and I literally could not afford to come home to say goodbye. Heartwrenching.
That's just crappy beyond words. I don't know what to say except that you guys have overcome so much, there's no doubt you'll get through this.
Big hugs and kisses to the three of you and Nanalah. I'm sending great vibes to all of you!
Oh Lord. But is there hope it's a harmless lump? You've got gagillions of people pulling for her quickest recovery. Words fail, alas...
(Also, the dear dog looks so sweet! A long, good life is best ended painlessly, but still how sad.)
{many hugs}
Thinking of you all and hoping for the best.
Nanalah and the entire family will be in my prayers. (((HUGS)))
Ah, Amy, I'm so sorry. You have my prayers and thoughts for strength for all of you. I've been reading through your stuff, and I have a feeling that brains, ferocity, wisdom, wit, and strength run deep from mom on through to daughter.
(and cuteness on through to baby!)
She'll do it again. You'll all kick ass.
Thinking of you.
My mother was just diagnosed with a recurrence of breast cancer after 12 years. We're currently waiting for a bunch of test results -- it's excruciating. I'm scared - I'm not ready to lose my mom. Fucking cancer.
Your family is in my thoughts.
I am soo sorry to hear this!
Another package will be posted on Monday for the Momalah/Nanalah with lots of good thoughts and wishes!
((HUGS)) Wishing your mom a speedy recovery... and wishing for a break for you! Hope better days are ahead.
:( that's crummy. i hope things turn out okay. *hugs*
Sending you all positive thoughts and prayers, Amy and family. The very best wishes coming your way.
I visit your website all the time, but am not generally the type to leave comments. This seems a better time than any, to speak up and say that I am very impressed with how well you handle yourself and anything life deals you. Although I don't know you and your family, you will be in my prayers. I hope that everything turns out for the best!
Lots of prayers and hope and love to Nanalah. Oh, and money too.
Good thoughts to the Nanalah, Amalah.
Amy,
Delurking to say how sorry I am for all that you are going through. Prayers and vibes and good energy your way. Here's praying your mom will be held gently until this too passes. Hang in there and be sure to be good to yourself through this too. She needs you....hell...everyone needs you!
Amy, I'm so sorry. Every time I hear about one more woman having to go through this (you and your mom both) I cry. I'm going to go through chemo soon and even though I'm a young mom and otherwise healthy, I've seen what power positive thinking has on things like this.
Help keep your mom thinking positively and you do the same!! You're both fighters - you'll get through this.
So sorry to hear about Nanalah... I'm sending good thoughts her way.
i commented the last time your mom started treatment, and i'll say the same thing: my mom and 3 of my aunts have survived breast cancer - one of them with it reoccurring like your mom, so keep your chin up! good things happen to good people, even if it's a struggle to get there :)
So sorry about your Mum, Amy. I'm thinking about you both and hoping for the best.
Many many many prayers for you and your mom. If you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to vent to,(and you didn't want it public for us all to share in ha ha) feel free to drop a line. Its a rough road to walk alone.
We're really praying for ya'll.
Hi Amy,
So sorry that I have been out of touch. I often think of you and check out your website for an update. I am praying for you and your family.
Love,
JoLynn
Hi Amy, my college roommate's mom had The BC twice and the second time just had a double mastectomy... got herself a boob job... and now walks around without a bra showing the rest of us up. Her boobs are way nicer than any of us in our mid-twenties, no doubt. We all do the walk together every year and it is so meaningful to know how many people are out there supporting this cause! Lots of postive thoughts and wishes for good things to come soon!
(PS Noah = delicious.)
Prayers and thoughts of you and yours abound. Also: I miss onesies.
Geez, Amy...there are no words. The pics of Noah did make me smile, however. I'll be sending prayers up for all of you.
God, what an adorable kid...
My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you.
no words to say how sorry I am. i am not sure about god and prayers and all that, but i send you goodness from NYC. hang in there.
delurking to be #144 to wish your mom all the best.
I love those. I'm doing some shirts (for mamas) as well - donating them to the American Cancer Society. It's a great cause - and we need a cure.
So, you already have a million comments saying this, but I am so sorry about your mom and dog. It's horribly unfair and awful...I will be praying and sending you all my best thoughts.
Praying for your Mom, that is just not fair to have to go through it all again.